Lord I’m angry. I could tell you all the reasons why but you already know. I know I should forgive, but right now I’m not feeling that! In my head I know I have no right not to forgive. I sin myself. You who are perfect and never sin forgive me. You love me anyway and I should love them as well. What right as a forgiven sinner, have not to forgive others? I sometimes feel forgiving them is excusing what they did to me, as if it’s OK when it differently is NOT OK.
But you never tell me my sin is OK, that what I do to others including You is OK when it’s not. You just forgive me out of love. Well right now, logically I know I should forgive I don’t feel it. I know I should love them but I don’t feel it. So Lord, I’ll say this:
I choose to forgive them, I choose to love them. But right now in my heart I’m not there. I ask you , please, out of Your great LOVE, make it real in my heart. So I can be more like you. Forgiving like you and loving like you! Let me show the love and forgiveness of Christ. In Jesus name, Amen.
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